Hello this post is dated so soon after the prev cos I drafted the prev one and then forgot to post it until now. 

The previous one was 6month pp but now I’m 8months pp and it’s just been getting better. it’s unfortunate that I have to go to work cos I just want to be with Hailey all the time. And Hailey is current in her wanting-mom phase so I’m enjoying it while it lasts. She cries when I walk away from her though (to bathe, to eat etc), so that’s heartbreaking to see. but when I approach her, she always laughs and breaks into a crackle. her eyes crinkle when she’s happy. I always have a really good time playing with her and at night, chris & I review our daily loot (of pics of her) together before we turn in. 

I’ll say “wna see my loot?” and he’ll say “but does yours have THIS??(some other pic of her doing smth funny)”

I never thought I’d be a “photo of my family on my wallpaper” kind of person cos I don’t like when people chap my personal life. I hate it when ppl ask about my home, my fam, see pics of me with them, etc..cos I like to keep personal things personal. Eg I don’t even like when colleagues ask me non-work stuff like where I go during leave. My office didn’t know I was married for a good length of time until idk who (probably my bosses) mentioned it. I don’t like it when people ask me “how are your parents?” cos bruh unless you’re 2 specific friends of mine, I don’t want to share that info with you. 

BUT. 

Here I now have a printed pic of Hailey on my phone case. It’s not for others to see but more for me.  Whenever I see her naughty face on it, I just get a small little shot of dopamine hahaha. 

Ok anyway 8-mth Hailey is very active. She has clear preferences for people, food, and toys. she has a specific favourite toilet she likes to hang out in, she likes to grab my red hairband, she picks the “bicycle” puzzle out from the vehicle-puzzle-pieces set. she eats certain stuff and pfffffts out others. right now she seems to like mini oranges, tofu, spinach is ok, salmon. She doesn’t like omelette although she likes egg whites. She doesn’t like minced meat (probably cos they taste like pebbles since they’re so thoroughly cooked that they’re dry). 

She will roll around in bed and lunge at stuff to get them cos she hasn’t gotten familiar with crawling yet. She’s very close to getting it but shes very wobbly. She will pull herself up by grabbing my shirt. And she has stopped eating cloth which I kinda miss but I guess it’s for the better haha T_T. My wet sleeve days are over. Nooooo. She also doesn’t stretch her arms out in hopes of baobao anymore. She uses her newfound mobility to do even more hahaha. 

She’s very fun to be around ^^ 

Kk I’ll continue this post another time. I’m excited for my friend who’s in Germany to have her own bundle of joy! Now I feel secondary happiness for those who are gonna discover this dimension of happiness the way I did. ^^ 

Ofc everyone is gna have a different experience - me enjoying time with my bb doesn’t mean anything about my thoughts with regards to childfree life etc. I think at the end of it all, just respect that life is life, whether big or small, young or old, and fluffy or not etc. so set free that spider in your kitchen, redirect that ant away into the wilderness instead of squashing it, celebrate those who don’t want kids, and accommodate those who bring kids into public spaces like planes or restaurants. Cos only entitled asshats think ‘ppl nowadays are so selfish for not wanting kids’ and ‘if your kids are gonna fuss, don’t bring them out in public’ cos like bruh let kids express themselves. and let childfree people do too. you asshats don’t have claim over spaces except that of your own home. so stay safe in your basements, or 6 feet under. Thanks :> 

Thankfully I don’t know such people in my social circle (except this Barbara who said not having kids is selfish). So im just having an imaginary conversation with those netizens who fit the shoe. Hahaha kthxbye