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Saturday, February 21, 2015
Today I tried to go back to how I was in high school. I feel so different in uni now..more bochup. Hair even more unkempt, and without uniforms to hide my lack of fashion awareness, I am indefinitely more like a huanglianpo. perhaps some people might attribute it to my having a boyfriend. letting myself go can easily be a result of having feel settled and all...but no not really. maybe actually having this one person whom I care to look good for...or at least, good with minimal effort, is what's keeping me from tipping the scale from casually unruly to hobo. I think I care less now because other people in uni simply care less now too. Hair in a messy bun? She must have just been mugging. Wearing pajamas in class? Why not, she practically lives in school.Just a thought. Is all. But an hour ago, I decided to tie my hair like I used to in high school, and even put my fringe down properly. My only admirer was the mirror but I got to choose the best angle that it saw me from. Finally, a moment when I feel a little more pleasant-looking. I miss the days in guides, when PT actually happened, and I was kept from growing too fat. Now I'm left to my own devices and exercising is actually a thing I am supposed to consciously DO. It's no longer a nice by-product of my having fun in my cca. Oh my. scary. Can we have a PT cca in school plis. ...and will i join it knowing that the opportunity cost of that is my aki work. Lol. Sergeant Ong is pretty cute, from Ah Boys to Men movie. I mean, the character. Idk abt the actor cos I'm not on until wna Google him haha. The character reminds me of Eunice, who was the embodiment of leadership. The model that I referred to when I was PL myself. Stern, yet reasonable, sometimes fun, always reassuring. Idk how she is as a person, but the one that I admired the way she carries herself in guides. Alright time to sleep. Why is my sleep cycle so horrid. It was fine from 2015 new year but ONE cny late night show about chinese flying people (the gu zhuang Xi where there are emperors and lung fu) messed it up. Long time no blog. I wonder who still comes over to read. Probably nobody but also, anybody. We all need this one person to mend our hearts, and I'm glad for my best friend. Ain't gna be mushy here because PDA isn't well-received, and hate messages on my expired tagbox aren't welcomed...I've already had my share of them because the hater was upset that my blog was all about me..but yeah, thank you so much for ONLY ever being a source of comfort and joy to me. Thanks for your 100%, and for your nurture. Sometimes, friends can break my heart in so many ways even though they are amazing friends at large, but never you. :-* One last thing to mention before I go is that I used to reject the idea of girly-girl, so ew to pink, ew to crying, and ew to being near and floral. But now I want to be a princess. Pink ball gowns weaved with dreams and a prince charming eager about me please :) ...also, lots of pretty things and magic animals. |
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