Thursday, September 4, 2008
i probably disgust you even more when i try. its ok, i understand. i disgust myself too, and wonder, why the hell am i trying so hard? ): ok,sorry,actually i can see you dont want this, i dont want it either, im sorry. really, very sorry.
and the reason why i try is because i care, somehow, i still care. dont smirk at this, please. i can promise you i'll use all my 15 years of overdued seriousness and tell you that i want you to be a bigbig part of my life.
and it doesnt matter how stupid that sounds to you, because its true.
i dont know what you think, and i dont want to assume, but i hope its not because you feel that i dont need you. i do,ok? youre important to me. very very important.
someone who has 1234567890987654321^e friends has none to spare.
i may not be that someone, but i have none to spare either.
please let me believe that friendships lasts forever. and let me know, if it had ever started out as friendship.
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