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Monday, May 2, 2016
Came here to talk to myself haha so I hope no one asks me about what I post. If anyone even comes here. I just need to talk to my imaginary ...something. Like talking to God in a prayer, but here, where I can look back at my archives once in a while.- Feeling sick to my stomach. Kinda feel like crying easily too. What is it, uterus, are you trying to tell me smth? But it's only day 20, you're not due for like, ever. Wish I wasn't the sort to get affected so easily emotionally. Surely it is evolutionarily disadvantageous? When some Chinese strangers yelled at each other in a store in Japan, it had absolutely zero relation to me and yet I was shaken anyway. Really weak in the face of conflicts. Maybe that's why I picked Chris. He shelters me even though he tries not to because he says it's dangerous to live in a bubble. Pearlyn shows me horoscope stuff sometimes, and notes that I display common traits of a piscean. If I weren't like this though, I'd be much more successful. Play into the strong woman role that is the face of female emancipation these days. Well anyway nothing's up. Just feeling like I need to get out of this mood, and get down from the clouds. Is it going to be land at my feet, or am I going to dive right into the depths of the sea, where I continue to float as I did in the sky, but with the pull of the ocean's darkness stronger than ever. I don't know. I'm not sure I have the right to have a reaction to this, because it isn't about me and yet simultaneously, is about me. And yet I only am privy to my own reaction, and so I can only talk about myself. I wish for world peace. - ON ANOTHER NOTE, while on Facebook, I came across an article about celebs saying what pregnancy thing surprised them, and I feel like vomiting just thinking about having kids. I used to think it'd be nice, because they'd look like you and the person you chose/who chose you. But months of bleeding into diapers, ugly deflated tummies, incontinence and peeing your pants uncontrollably, having responsibilities you can't pause, post partum depression, stretch marks, scars, pain, death, people knowing you did the nasty, not doing the nasty because the bottom is messed up, stitches that burst, crazy things people feed you to "nourish your body"...feeling like a sow. Totally not #justgirlythings to be envious of. Just feel like barfing my guts out right now. |
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