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Tuesday, May 19, 2009
its like knowing Cinderella's story by heart since young, and suddenly being told that Cinderella's a villian who cut up her sister's gown the night before the ball.ive heard too many sides of the story. and my believe is now back into a pumpkin. the magic has ended,maybe? whatever.shall ignore whatever i dont want to not ignore. _____ maybe ive invested too much. i dont know. _____ was emoing in class throughout the day. i suck la. why am i even in dhs, let alone dhs4K? giving up is so damn tempting, but ive given up on so many things already. i cant do the same to myself. though i just know i'll never catch up in chem, phy, math, or anything else for that matter. and i didnt even do well for my best subject, bio. stupid practical pulled me down drastically. no,sorry.not that the practical was stupid, teoee was the stupid one. i know i'm a lucky child.i'm totally blessed and stuff. wonderful parents, caring sibling(believe it or not), friends, and really nice teachers, strangers who encourage me just out of nowhere, and god, who's up in the sky, probably being more stressed than i am. which is actually what makes the whole situation so horrid. i had been gifted wtih 23 pairs of chorosomes and proper intellectual capacity, and i know i can do many things well, but yet, i end up a failure. what a disappointment. _______ been in a bad mood since morning. especially since i was dead tired yesterday, and knew that i would be dead tired today too. lucky wei talked to me, even though it made her gums hurt to talk. thanks: ) of course, i'm still in a bad mood now, and ive been trying to translate that bad mood into "sian-ness" for the whole day, but sigh. ): smiling's a real chore. its times like these that i start reminding myself of things that people have once said to me, things like "never put yourself down before others do" "if you say cannot, then you will really fail. must believe that you can." "i can help you." you'll never guess where those quotes came from. unexpected people give more meaningful surprises. (: and yeah, i remember you and the help that you had given me: D thankyou so much. (and i dont even know how you look like.gawd.) _______ took 158 today. was standing in the bus, away from hans and daph cos i was asked to shift inside the bus, then someone alighted and there was an empty seat near me. i didnt want to sit, so continued standing, and 2 kind dhs boys(sec2s maybe?) thought i hadnt noticed the empty seat and asked me so so politely if i would sit down. lol was rather impressed and surprised at the same time. to think i thought ALL dhs guys were immature and non gentlemanly. haha guess my generalisation also got exceptions de(: anyway, the whole point is, today, my impression of dhs male species changed for the better(though barely) : ) _____ hanxi and i both thinks it looks like a bulldog. : D abit mean, but true. _____ i am going to sleep. shant go online today. byebye. |
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