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Sunday, July 27, 2008
i admire lady macbeth.at least she knew her role in life, even though it was a path of evil. what is the purpose of existence. and what, does it take to do justice to that question? i feel queasy before every run, before the sound of a gunshot, indicating that the race has begun. and i dont like feeling queasy. i received a note, saying that i was "eternally optimistic"and that "people's opinions don't matter to me" but i suppose both arent true, however much i wish to be like that. i want to be a 4.0 student, why give me the looks of a nerd but not the brain? ironically, i love my life : D i love it so much, people should hate me for it. ^i am strong, when i am on your shoulders you raised me up to more than i can be procrastination is a drug. i need to go for rehab. every thankyou i say is sincere, just because you cant feel it doesnt mean its not there. just because you cant see it doesnt mean it doesnt exist. "if you cant see it, it's not there" is a lousy theory. people who believe in it probably dont have any brains, since we cant see their brains,which, proven by their theory, doesnt exist. "failure mothers success" right-.- failure only seems to produce more successful counsellors and successful depressed souls. i dont apply that disgusting word to myself, no matter how well it fits. i believe in myself(: or perhaps, i believe in what i used to be. but what was i? everybody has their different versions, different distortions of memories. the word "hi" or a simple"hello" means alot. its just so sad that people act so miserly about saying them. a sincere "hello" may mean so much. it can say, for example,"i am really happy that youre here." or it could suggest"youre worth the few seconds i used to say a hello,and perhaps even more" i chew on food and nibble on snacks all the time at home, but im rarely hungry. i just feel like filling this weird empty space with whatever i can find. i can only translate whatever psycological needs i have into physical needs. like sleeping, eating. basically pigging out. oink. it's 10:10pm. i'm not looking for 11:11pm anymore. lady macbeth is so smart(: i dont think she loved macbeth though, maybe thats why they're barren. |
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