Monday, December 18, 2017hi, i'm back here.
because its me, i'm just the me from before. the tree across seasons.
god, i'm still so young. will i ever graduate from being young. and unknowing, and unsure, and.
i guess i'm the dog that carries its own tail.
am i ever meant to have people in my life. i dont know, i dont know.
Monday, November 27, 2017Unfortunately I’m the sort of girl who preps a meal to bring to her you office, but ends up eating it before it even cools.
dno what to eat for lunch tmr anymore. Guess I gta dabao but I hate that one stall avail there. why I so glutton uh. Why????
before I succumbed to the packed lunch, I tried to distract myself from it by eating cookies, chocolate, and random shit. But still. to no avail. I just wanted to eat savory and not sweet food.
why uh. how can I stop eating so much. even my colleague asked me why I eat so much cos he noticed that my peanut butter jar is always open on the desk. I am never gnabbe able to wear a crop top. Not withstanding that chris would ban it anyway hahaha
Okay I’ll just dabao tomorrow. Or maybe I’ll make an egg crumpet and bring it to office.
Long time no see, my mysterious readers. wonder who’s still here. perhaps the existence of this space kinda defeats the purpose of a blog. Which in today’s terms, seems to be for sharing and perhaps some advertisement moolah. Or reviews. here I am, still using it for its primitive noob function - a diary: dumping ground.
since having chris, Esther, pearl (alphabetical order) around, I’ve had alternatives to this for rants hahaha but occasionally it’s still nice to post here. So, hi.
adding olives to a tomato stew is so yummy omg cannot stop eating.
my ice cream has melted to a goopy pool. I added fig confit to it. mm hipster.
tmr I’m gna sleepover at Esther’s!! At age 24 still got sleepover OMG I’m so excited!! can’t wait! she says there’s gna be chicken soup and lots of snacks hahaha and I hope we get to watch something :D
Sunday, October 1, 2017i changed my mind omg i dont wna socialise tmrrr nooo!!
i dont wna make new friends i dont have it in me to be extroverted anymore wodemayaaaa
i went to read this thing i wrote and kept for my self, and its sad.
sometimes i imagine an older me consoling the me now. so i have someone.
i type out my thoughts, and look now, the older me is reading what the then-me had written.
while i cannot console her, i can empathize, and maybe thats not bad either.
but i was shocked by my own candidness. though i know i probably had had even more raw things to say. even from myself also muz hold bak. boo. humji.
hi! im back!
is it i must blog with a vengeance now to make up for lost time?
no la no la,
i just wna talk.
i want to go out ley. by myself.
but i dont wna go out.
i have nth to say.
hahaha i just went to see my old posts since im reminiscing right,
but wtf i was an embarrassment HAHA pls dont rmb me like that hahaha
hello i'm finally back!!
who's still here, kee chiu! :D
(hha i came across this keechiu thing on facebook comments. cute leh!)
i know its not a new song but i'm now listening to gao bai qiqiu by jaychou!
why do his songs make me feel like its the sec3 times again haha
time to blog, time to daydream, time to use many smileys and exclamation marks in my posts.
- to youth!
to all the "stalkers on the internet" that my parents used to warn me about, who will find out where i live and what i do by my photos and micro-info,...
i am 24 this year.
so i guess at this age i'm not supposed to feel old, because i'm only about 30% done loading..assuming i live till 80. but i do.
wearing frumpy workclothes, meeting friends to "catch-up" instead of "hang out", having no crush (but got rs luh, which adds to the adultness?) and having admirers become liabilities... i really feel like... *groans*
so maybe ive got to thank these songs to being me back to the feels.
singlehood was fun, not because i was single but because i was young hahahah.
oh shit look im talking in past tense again.
i was once told, by a senior guy on msn, that i use too many smileys. it makes sense. but i didnt really change very much though i thought it'd be a good idea to, cos i felt unfriendly if i just said "haha"
instead of "haha :D". like, is that haha a cool laugh or a snicker, if there isnt a smiley beside it, right?
ok just a random recollection luh. dno what really triggered it also.
maybe cos guilty for typing liddis after so long.
anyway, long way to go luh. 80 is a long way to go. dno whether sian anot but time'll pass by without my active role in it so i dont need to worry bout it.
i'm still the same. i still daydream. impossible scenarios, but why spend my imagination quota on something real right?
i've been reluctant to make new friends since about thesis year. but i didnt really meet a lot of new people so my antisocial-ness didnt seem so strong. but at work i can feel it. yet, there are some mates who seem to want to befriend me and perhaps i'm the only one being stuck in the "too old for xxx" mentality. maybe this is an opportunity to make friends and be vibrant again.
oh i bumped into jovina while out with the aki gang yesterday. felt so nice to see her albeit momentarily only!
i think, at my new office, since i'm not in a consultant firm like others are, i have the opportunity to reclaim my lost social life. soon. soon. once i'm content with the time i've had for myself.
for now, i just want it to be all me.
at times, i purposely want to seem older because i think it might help me at work. but maybe i'm just kidding myself haha.
i want to be 15 again. :> maybe its time. come find me! let's reconnect!(by text maybe haha i'm still too lazy to do meet-ups)
at least 24yo no need to do jianbao BAHAHA
Friday, April 14, 2017
goong songs feel tonight. it's really the end isnt it. the last song is just something familiar, though ive never watched song hye kyo before DOTS, nor seen Rain's works.
like kim jongkook, i like the girl from goong. dno her name. eun something.
ok a quick google reveals she is Yoon Eun Hye.
dno if productivity is up while listening, or while not. really hope all will be ok.
Wednesday, March 22, 2017cruel. scammer.
Monday, March 20, 2017i cant wait to see pearl again!!!
talked to weiwei early this morning! \\\much love
also talked to chris haha
yesterday morning we pretended to do mv for New, Magic, Dangerous Gamble, and Cocoa through skype.
nissy's voice somehow so much nicer in aaa songs. but still cute luh.
i like how he wears light blue and light-coloured clothes. very sunshine-like.
unlike in his own solo, he wears the dark blue suit which is nice but isnt the MOE ive alr put on him ahaha
I LIKE FANGIRLING like this because its so easy to feel good when you appreciate someone else's talents'.
dont wna talk about other things in my life rn.
thanks for these crafts and art to tide us through whatever else we are liable for in life.
i love nissy's smile
all the japanese girls in the mv they make so pretty . idealsss
Monday, March 13, 2017
Cocoa - MisaChia, AAA
chris sent me songs from \their newer album so ive g\ot t\hat going \\\:|D\
get one from cbox!
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